Weve opened the floodgates

I wonder where you’ve gone.
You haven’t spoken in weeks.
You’ve lost the will to live.
What’s broken your spirit?

It’s been raining for weeks.
Windshield wipers on high.
Running naked through the flooded streets.
The sun might come up tomorrow.

I wonder who this girl is and why she’s better than me.
Is it so bad to just want to sit in your presence?
Dreams of sabotage constantly reoccurring.
I don’t want to be in your arms again.
My body craves for it.

Rejected from a form of employment.
Rejected from you.
Rejected from him.
Rejected from the only thing I love.
I just need one acceptance letter before it’s over.
I might loose my mind.
Brain matter splattered on aluminum flooring.
Happy Thanksgiving Ma.

I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.
Follow the bread crumbs back to the beginning.
I’m going to die in this maze.
Not a soul beside me.

Where to go now.
I’ve been going for too long.
This field trip should’ve ended.
Let me off the bus, No one signed my permission slip.

Are my organs still functioning?

What are we doing?
Is there an answer.
Google it.
I’m sure someone knows.

Face meets concrete.
How sweet it tastes.

Fantasies cloud my perception.
Who’s to say what’s real?
You have no control.
Are you surprised to hear you’re not free.

I’m just a doodle on a chalkboard.
My dust will cause you cancer.
There are no erasers.
Erase me with a finger.
Just one touch.

I just want you to know…
I’ve always loved you.